Friday, September 10, 2010

The lag of male immaturity!

So Ladies... what if there is a guy that is just perfectly what you want.  He is smart, funny, financially stable, educated, loves life, sports, movies, cute, great kisser and pretty much fills the majority of the boxes.  However, He is just too immature to be in a serious relationship.  And he is well aware of it.  Its so confusing.

So one guy I have dated on and off through the summer is a pretty interesting guy... And in writing and in person almost fills all the boxes...

He broke things off back in July... kinda of shitty because he broke up over text... yes I am serious.   (thats where the immaturity starts or really ended)

However, as I was in a drunken stooper at We-Fest, I text him and asked why he couldn't be a man and pick up the damn phone...

His reponse:  "I know I am a pussy.  But the door isn't fully closed for me so don't be surprised if I call you down the road.  The choice is yours if you answer."  What the hell does that mean!?

So even though it was a shitty dump text, I answered his text today.  He was upset because I "de-friended" him from facebook.  (I did delete him because I really didn't want to know what he was doing)  I responded.. "I didn't know I wasn't suppose to do that.  Are we friend?  I don't remember hanging out as friends."  Then of course he asked if he could see me...

He still makes me nervous, with butterfly's and excited to see him.  The whole drive to his house my stomach was in knots.. I mean, normal guys don't do this to me.  I barely get nervous for blind dates... But he does this to me.. AND I HATE IT!

None-the-less, we had an enjoyable time.  It was great to see him and catch up, I forgot how cute he is.  PLUS he is an amazing kisser, among many great talents (which you can let your mind wander) ;)

As the evening was coming to an end the phone rang, his buddy was calling to see if he was meeting them out.  Then his friend goes, is your girl still there?  WHAT?? girl, who, me?  Someone has been talking about me.  Interesting.. As we all know girls guys don't talk about random girls, they talk about girls they are interested in...

Then asked if he could see me tomorrow... I responded... "not unless we hang out outside of your apartment"  he said... "like dinner? or something?"  I said "just something.  I am not interested in being a booty call or just a random girl with you."  

So here the conversation starts about why he broke things off in July...  He literally said, and I quote.  "I am fucking immature Sam, I thought I wanted something serious and then we started getting there and I just am not ready... I want to go out and have some more fun guy single time."  So I looked at him and said "Fuck girls"  right logical to what he was talking about... He comes back to me and says... "Sam, your the only person I have been with in a long time and I don't randomly date people, I called you tonight because I wanted to see you."  me: "for the wrong reasons".  Him: "I still called you, I am a all or nothing type person and I want you around, but I am not quite ready for all yet, just give me time and enjoy the moments we do have.  If I am going to go all in, I just want to make sure I am going to try with the right person."  me:  "How do you know its the right person if you don't spend time with them?"

UGH! really... I mean I have been there before with another guy. I have no desire to wait around, however I do know he doesn't date other girls and he talks to his friends about me.  I even know he told his best friend that I was his soulmate kisser (whatever the hell that means) during a lovely golf game of theirs...

What does it all mean.  Is it all bull shit?  Or could it be something AMAZING...

He said he will call me tomorrow, we will see if he follows up... but don't worry ladies, I am sticking to my guns, either a date or nothing!

Love and War
Samantha

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